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Saturday 29 June 2013

My Confession

Hi guys, I am back, I know at this moment  normally I will say 'It has been like several months from my last entry', I know this sentence seems to appear in all of my entries though it's still the fact, I just can't help it.

Anyway, what I wanna tell in this post is as the title of the post named, which is a post regarding my confession to my one long lost friend. If you are in my Facebook friend lists you might have noticed that I had posted  a status recently about 

' I personally think that the act of people expressing their emotional thoughts/critisms of others who irritate/frustrate them is an immature way of living'.

Yes, it's true that's what I sincerely currently feel but for those who followed my blog few years back then could have thought this is a laughter or just irony because I wrote a post on how I hate someone 3 years ago. Well, this is why I am here writing this post as my confession to that person involved in my related old entry.

Once I wrote how the related person affected my life how annoying I felt how irritated she was how and how and so and even saying she's just a nightmare of mine *well that post I already deleted long ago, you not gonna get the chance to read it*. At that time you know I seldom logged in to check my blog and stuffs while I rather spent my time with other things that I'm more potential of.. When I looked back to it after several weeks I was so surprised because she actually was a reader of mine and she read it and left me a comment!

Well can you imagine how a person suppose to react at that time when you just got noticed the person that you don't like * p/s:at that time* is actually an invisible reader of you? However, I didn't give too much of thoughts I also forgot how I reacted maybe I just ignored and hypnotized myself saying that I didn't do anything wrong that's how I truly feel after all.. 

But for all I had taken that happened, I realized writing about others' bad or criticizing about others' shorts in public isn't a good way of living. It not just killing people by words but also hurting people with all your unoptimistic angle of thinking. It had even became a totally black spot of my growth for all these years. I wanted to do something indeed, Idk, at that time I even started to stalk back to look back to her but I just can't because I just can't find any public page that owned by her after how many 1000x I googled her through my search engine. 

Well, life is always out of your expectation. Few days before, when I was still not around the country I just by chance saw her fb profile win my notification about her commented at my brother's status which the same to me not so earlier ago. What the first thought in my mind is, Ok right, I finally found her. 

After almost 2 weeks of thinking, I finally made my decision to personal message her. Gosh, I could have ignore and ignore her, because after all we may never ever meet each other again or having mutual friends in the social circle but no I didn't at last I chose to apologize to her. I even told her I was so sorry about my act of writing that of her in a public page, well I also so sad of myself for all the hurts I could have brought to her. For all I need is just she can accept it, well treating me as friend or not will be talking later, at least for my immature act of youth I would call it. One thing of her was right in her comment at that time which I would never deny is that as friend, as we were really once a friend, we should have told her about her inappropriate acts or our discomfort feelings instead of badmouthing in the back like this. This is also the same as robbing away her chance to be a better person, this is my fault. Besides, she might have changed and no longer like that as we were separated I could not know and how could I kill her changes simply like that? Well I am really sorry about that.

However, I'm still the lucky one. She replied me at the same night I personal messaged her, she meant all the pasts are passed, we should look forward. Yes, she forgive that and hoping we're still friend after all;)

Guys, this is a good example telling us nothing is ever too late. If you have done something which you think you were so wrong due to your past immature-nes just go ahead and grab your chance now, when you're still holding it. Always remember, the bravest person is the one who able to admit, to make changes to their past flaws.

Lastly, wish you all the best to whoever willing to step forward to make the changes. Good day :)

Friday 26 April 2013

做好自己


曾经听一位朋友烦恼地倾述过,明明已经尽量达到客人的要求了,可是基于这并不是那顾客原初最想要的,而感到焦虑担忧这样会失去了那位regular customer 在来日的光顾。

在爱情中,被甩的那方对另一方怀恨在心,保持着你让我痛苦我也不会让你好过的报仇想法,也是家常便饭的事。更有的劈腿事件中,被劈腿的那方还会做出stalking第三者的行为来,狠角色的更会秋出那第三者不管三七二十一,不分青红皂白地狠狠盖她/他一巴以泄一时之愤。

往往人类总会在一起消沉时,抱怨自己对对方如此的好,然而得到的却是这样不忠不贞的对待。可是,试想想,这样做有/或会失去了你自己做人的原则吗?对前者来说,只要把自己的本份做好,问心无愧,终有一天客人会感受到;对后者而言,不要抱怨为什么你的另一半会劈腿于一个条件不比你好的人,不要难为自己。既然他不懂得珍惜,也罔顾彼此情意,那么把他留下也无用之时,何不把他双手奉送给那第三者?你的好,在他那漫漫人生里,他总会想起....

好比说,夜晚的月亮,特别的亮...月圆阴缺,是多么的分明。给予迷失方向的人们微微的光,唤起游子对家的思念;那么白天呢?白天里,阳光普照,明月已不知何去处了...可就代表它不在吗?它是存在着地,只是因为人类的不足而看不见月亮...可是它依然是高高挂在那天空上...月亮就像我们行的善,夜晚使月亮变的皎洁明亮就如我们的善果。

我们心善行善,不管当下是承受恶果让你有多疼有多痛,我们务必保持自己当好人的原则...千万别气馁说:(对职场上的人)我再好人那么又如何,人是自私的,客人哪里会懂我已经为他做了那么多这么多。可结果,客人并没有介怀还客观的接受了他的建议,到回来光顾了好几回;(对感情上的人)再痛,都请保持当好人的心态。别轻贱别人,轻贱自己。记得,己所不欲勿施于人。自己的疼痛,请别迁怒于别人的身上要他和你一起痛。要相信,不是没有善果,还没有看见并不代表它不存在着...

Monday 22 April 2013

给朋友的一段话


在这2013年里,我终于完成了我人生的第一个学士学位 Degree (Hons)。可现在可是矛盾时期,忙的时候总希望早点毕业;完成了,落得两袖清风,却觉得不安,犹如即将脱落的枯叶,不知何去何从。。。

在我这一生,不管在人生的哪个转折点,我都觉得上天对我不薄,对我十分眷顾。

第一,我很幸运出生在这个家庭,‘钟’ 氏一族。虽然我不是什么大富大贵,可我有位很了不起的公公,一位很令人敬佩的婆婆,成就了我们令人称赞的家教。这一定是我前世修来的福。

第二,在我从中学毕业以来,糊里糊涂中,选着了Taylor's开始我的大学先修班,当中我才知道原来那是间名誉如此好的大学,在那毕业的学生往往都比其他学校毕业生多了大半的机会。而我选择的课程虽然很新,不比A Level 有名,可是却是操控于University of Melbourne, 那艰辛忙碌的课程,让我比别人多了一份面对大众启齿的勇气,一分刻苦耐劳的恒心。

第三,先修班毕业了,糊里糊涂中选着了International Medical University, 和 medical biotechnology这个课程。。事实这真的很糊涂,为什么是IMU?*当初觉得这学校很烂*, 只因学费比较便宜,而且课程无需出国就能完成;可是在参与了这学校后才知道,这是一所无比有名誉的学校,马来西亚第一所私立医药学院,拥有二十二年医药领域经验,专业出产无数的医生,牙医,药剂师 还有其他医药领域的研究人员比如说我。。。许多人还不知道,IMU 有许多卧虎长龙。。不管是讲师,大马与邻国有名专业人士*不说与某某公立比较*;学生,超有能力的。。不说IMU 的水平比大多数私立与公立的大学来的高来的严格,许多的学生还能够一直保持4.0 cgpa, 还有的医科学生做double degree, 或完成了engineering degree 又来个 mbbs (医科学士,至少五年),我的妈呀,听见我都快疯了。。。hmm。。有点离题了。。其实要说的是,我还没正式掏过父母或自己的钱来给这个学士的学费。。。ptptn 借了我一点钱, 学校merit award 又给了我30% discount,ptptn的钱已可以付完我的学费。。。这真的是糊里糊涂中上天给我的眷顾。。。

第四,在这三年里,生活有起有落。。不想再多说那是什么。。但之后我改变了许多。。如那位好友 C 所说的:没有昨天的你,没有今天的我。 昨天的我,单纯快乐信任相信天真无知;在落过后的我,承受得起更成熟开阔忠于自己该快乐就快乐给别人机会等于给自己机会,感激所经历的的一切,不然不会成就今日的我,一个我更喜欢的我,一个更独立的我,更坚强的我:)在我最落寞的时候,上天给了我一道难得一见的双彩虹,两座彩虹形成一座桥而我却在哪桥下穿过。。这真是亲眼所见过的,告诉着我别灰心,别难过,雨后总会天晴,总会出现彩虹,你会好起来的。。。也如朋友j所说:感谢那时的你,让我成长了。。
也明白了,在这世上,每个人都会经历挫折落寞。。只在于时机。。

致所有和我一样承受过挫折落寞的朋友,时机到了,不要后悔埋怨憎恨他,要去承受。。。感激他让你成长了,让你有一回有味的人生。要记得,做人总要‘信’,再难过的日子,走着走着就会到了将来。。犹如今早报纸对黄桐的新书而言:‘人生就如茶叶蛋,有裂痕才入味’ 和 ‘熬过了,将来就是属于你的’。。

p/s:不好意思还是插了一张自恋照:$

Regards,
Nicole

Tuesday 1 January 2013

01•01•2013

A new year, hopefully a new start for everyone. Swasp..(sparkling wand) Bad memories erased:);)



:)

Wednesday 12 December 2012

Dark sides

                  It has been a very long time since the last time I entered my blog and updated it. I have been always thinking whether to continue running it, if yes, what types of blog I want it to be? Fashion? Food? Skin Care? Lastly, I just want it to be my soul land for this moment at least, place that I can huge with, hide in. So it matches well with the theme of this blog, peace land. I also don't know do anyone reading my blog actually, so if yes please give me some responses, leave comments and say Hi to me?
                   There are so much up and falls happened during these gaps, time that I stopped my blog writes till now, more than that I could take, and slipped away before I could response in time. They are all sorts of mental, physical and psychological strugglings. I'm not gonna talk about it because things that had happened will never be changed...the only thing can be changed is how we take it. Since then I have totally another me. I used to be a quiet person except with my closest BFFs, undoubtedly I like peace environment. Now I'm still a quiet person and even with friends around me....I just find that like to see them, observe, and think more than talking. I appreciate them, I appreciate my family, especially my mum...she always give me the thoughts that her arms are the safest place ever for me...I am a tough, very tough and independent person in front of her....I didn't want to scare her indeed how much i wish i could cry in her arms...for even a second? I am stronger now, and colder...only coldness can sweep away the darkness, my pain and hurting, I must live with dignity.
                   After all these, the only thing that still left very clear in my mind and I still believe in is knowledge can change one's life. I want to get higher achievement in my education, so I will have better career. I want money, I like money,BUT I am not the person who letting hand out and asking parents for money, because I live with dignity, this has never been changed since I was still a child. I will never use my parents' money which earned with sweats and blood for my own desires. In turn, I pretty like the feelings of giving money to them instead of asking from them. This is me. I want money, I will earn it. I have been looking  for a stable job for a Uni student, that does not affect my studies. I have been thinking for many ways, but mostly not work. If anyone of you know, do inform me and I really do appreciate a lots but please no frauds. and so after all I want to have an online shop...I'm still thinking what to sell..something that can give me consistent profits and able to keep my business running. Anyhow, transportation fares to M'sia is expensive, so I ended up spending bunch for shopping...not earning:(((maybe if you know the cheapest and reliable ways please do inform me too. Maybe the I will show the goods that I shopped, comments are very welcome because your comments are part of my surveys although I don't expect I will get comments!!!!

:)

Wednesday 13 June 2012

太多的事情要去面对,太多的事想要把它做好, 可又有多少能力?依赖,尊严,责任,负担与压力,谁先优先?我要做,我真的要做,但我要如何做到?这就是现实。

Sunday 10 June 2012

I've been awhile not touching my blog, feel so sorry and guilty for it,my little speak out place.
If you have followed my Facebook, you would know that I'm having semester break since 10th of May, but for what reason i didn't update my blog, it has only one, lazy! Hahaha, all my times have been contributed in watching drama. I believe that everyone will have their fav drama and so do I. For me, I personally a crazy fans of Criminal Minds! I know many people would prefer Gossip Girls or Desperate Wife. Be honest, I had tried on watching Gossip Girls as so recommended by many but I still not get the interests on what it calls gossip and scandaling in the drama. I PERSONALLY feel meaningless for watching GG. I like Criminal Minds and Dexter. I have been chasing for seasons. Maybe is because of my field of study, i like the creepy killing scenes! Ok...stop! I'm not a psycho!  I just...like how it feels when your adrenaline shoots up when you watching how.Besides, you might be alerted through the scenes which reflecting the true social issues happening in daily life!! We have to be extra aware and careful whenever and wherever we go since there are many robbing, kidnapping, rape and many that happening eat day outside.... Recently I'm on Grimm. Hope you will like them too, night!
Criminal Minds!!

Dexter!!!!


Grimm!!


Must watch ya!