Dark sides

                  It has been a very long time since the last time I entered my blog and updated it. I have been always thinking whether to continue running it, if yes, what types of blog I want it to be? Fashion? Food? Skin Care? Lastly, I just want it to be my soul land for this moment at least, place that I can huge with, hide in. So it matches well with the theme of this blog, peace land. I also don't know do anyone reading my blog actually, so if yes please give me some responses, leave comments and say Hi to me?
                   There are so much up and falls happened during these gaps, time that I stopped my blog writes till now, more than that I could take, and slipped away before I could response in time. They are all sorts of mental, physical and psychological strugglings. I'm not gonna talk about it because things that had happened will never be changed...the only thing can be changed is how we take it. Since then I have totally another me. I used to be a quiet person except with my closest BFFs, undoubtedly I like peace environment. Now I'm still a quiet person and even with friends around me....I just find that like to see them, observe, and think more than talking. I appreciate them, I appreciate my family, especially my mum...she always give me the thoughts that her arms are the safest place ever for me...I am a tough, very tough and independent person in front of her....I didn't want to scare her indeed how much i wish i could cry in her arms...for even a second? I am stronger now, and colder...only coldness can sweep away the darkness, my pain and hurting, I must live with dignity.
                   After all these, the only thing that still left very clear in my mind and I still believe in is knowledge can change one's life. I want to get higher achievement in my education, so I will have better career. I want money, I like money,BUT I am not the person who letting hand out and asking parents for money, because I live with dignity, this has never been changed since I was still a child. I will never use my parents' money which earned with sweats and blood for my own desires. In turn, I pretty like the feelings of giving money to them instead of asking from them. This is me. I want money, I will earn it. I have been looking  for a stable job for a Uni student, that does not affect my studies. I have been thinking for many ways, but mostly not work. If anyone of you know, do inform me and I really do appreciate a lots but please no frauds. and so after all I want to have an online shop...I'm still thinking what to sell..something that can give me consistent profits and able to keep my business running. Anyhow, transportation fares to M'sia is expensive, so I ended up spending bunch for shopping...not earning:(((maybe if you know the cheapest and reliable ways please do inform me too. Maybe the I will show the goods that I shopped, comments are very welcome because your comments are part of my surveys although I don't expect I will get comments!!!!

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太多的事情要去面对，太多的事想要把它做好， 可又有多少能力？依赖，尊严，责任，负担与压力，谁先优先？我要做，我真的要做，但我要如何做到？这就是现实。

I've been awhile not touching my blog, feel so sorry and guilty for it,my little speak out place.

If you have followed my Facebook, you would know that I'm having semester break since 10th of May, but for what reason i didn't update my blog, it has only one, lazy! Hahaha, all my times have been contributed in watching drama. I believe that everyone will have their fav drama and so do I. For me, I personally a crazy fans of Criminal Minds! I know many people would prefer Gossip Girls or Desperate Wife. Be honest, I had tried on watching Gossip Girls as so recommended by many but I still not get the interests on what it calls gossip and scandaling in the drama. I PERSONALLY feel meaningless for watching GG. I like Criminal Minds and Dexter. I have been chasing for seasons. Maybe is because of my field of study, i like the creepy killing scenes! Ok...stop! I'm not a psycho!  I just...like how it feels when your adrenaline shoots up when you watching how.Besides, you might be alerted through the scenes which reflecting the true social issues happening in daily life!! We have to be extra aware and careful whenever and wherever we go since there are many robbing, kidnapping, rape and many that happening eat day outside.... Recently I'm on Grimm. Hope you will like them too, night!

Criminal Minds!!

Dexter!!!!

Grimm!!

Must watch ya!

Women are like this, emotions always change fast in so frequent. It can be happened in just a sudden.

As for me, i can be tired for the bunches of lab reports, tests and workshop; somehow in the next second I'm so passion with what I'm learning, and proud of what I will be working on.

Or, thinking how amazing and incredible of  chinese language can be where a single word can mean for so deep yet I'm typing English right now.

Okay, all of these are just craps. Due to the emotional nature of female. LOL. Night:)

爱情，可以等待吗？ 以前认为，假如对方爱你，就算再久，他也应该踏在原地的等待； 现在懂得，也许在等待你的过程中，他身边已出现了不错的对象， 而你的再次回来，会否自己的自私而令他错过了他的幸福呢？这样好吗？

我们 你们 他们

现在终于知道为什么每次在书展，都会看见许多人手中拿着一本又一本， 就算价钱来得比较贵，却仍然拾得买上几本。
本以为他们是笨蛋，只是本只有图画的书；原来笨的是我—————— 几米。
爱上了其中几张。

你随手丢弃我给你的爱，让我难坑透了。

我告诉你，这次我们真得完蛋了。

你怎能如此任性，完全不在乎我的感受，这次我们完蛋了。

你过你还想和我和好，就必须和我道歉，还给我一模一样的爱，要不然.......我们就真的完蛋了。

第一次想自杀的那个下午，天气刚好不是很好。

昨晚，他说了些令人难过的话，
让我沏了一整天，我想让他常常伤心的滋味，
让他已被置都觉得对不起我，
（我的灵魂可以飘到他的声便劝慰他吗？）

但是，如果他只伤心一下，就把我给忘了呢？
或是他太需要安慰，
以至于爱上来安慰她的猪八戒呢？
（我的灵魂可以铸当这一切吗？）

而且，说不定我明天就会碰到一个比他更可爱，
又不会乱发脾气的女孩。
（灵魂可能跟活人谈恋爱吗?）

第一个事例逃生的那个夜晚，
乌云密布的天空，
冒出一轮又圆又大的月亮。

世界最让人惆怅的事，
莫过于两只须奈的瓶中信，
历经千山万水，
终于在茫茫的大海中，
奇迹似的相逢了，
他们轻轻轻轻的互碰了一下，
就又迅速被海浪推开，
各自消失在茫茫大海中....
那碰撞时的细微声响确实如此荡气回肠，
惊心动魄，千万年才有一回。


by....:)

I'm back.

hi， 大家好，好久不见，我回来了：） 已经好久好久没有进过来了，有点甚至连它的博皮是什么样子的我都已经不记得了：P真有点没良心厚！ 也许你会好奇怎么没有了那么多posts？是因为我不想要了，但有留下一个，因为我舍不得。 短短几个月发生了好多事情，好像过了几千年一样，成熟了许多。 不知是年头的时间过得特别快，还是心理作用，一个sem也就要完了，还有一年就毕业了，是喜还是另一个烦恼的源头呢？ 送你一张近来的照片吧。

喜欢，因为看起来象paint work。

see ya.